{"id":75038,"date":"2021-12-16T00:53:43","date_gmt":"2021-12-16T00:53:43","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.thefastfashion.com\/?p=75038"},"modified":"2021-12-16T00:53:43","modified_gmt":"2021-12-16T00:53:43","slug":"holly-madison-details-traumatic-first-time-sex-hugh-hefner","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.thefastfashion.com\/?p=75038","title":{"rendered":"Holly Madison details ‘traumatic’ first time having sex with Hugh Hefner"},"content":{"rendered":"

Holly Madison remembers having sex with Hugh Hefner for the first time as a \u201ctraumatic\u201d experience.<\/p>\n

\u201cI was wasted,\u201d Madison, 41,\u00a0said on the\u00a0\u201cPower: Hugh Hefner\u201d\u00a0podcast\u00a0on Monday. \u201cHe was literally pushed on top of me. And after it happened, I was just mortified and embarrassed, and it had way more of an emotional impact on me than I thought it would.\u201d<\/p>\n

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The \u201cGirls Next Door\u201d alum, who dated the late Playboy founder from 2001 to 2008, recalled being out at a club when she and a group of other women went back to the Playboy Mansion with Hefner, where things quickly escalated.<\/p>\n

\u201cI wasn\u2019t necessarily expecting to have sex that night. I thought it would be more of a first date \u2014 even though, obviously, it\u2019s not a very traditional first date,\u201d she said.\u00a0\u201cI thought it would be more the type of thing where I saw what happened, saw what was going on. If I wasn\u2019t comfortable with it, I wouldn\u2019t have to do anything and I could make my decision on whether I wanted to come back for date No. 2 or not.\u201d<\/p>\n

While Madison had admired Hefner at the time, what really \u201chorrified\u201d her was that all of the other ladies knew she and the famed philanderer had slept together.<\/p>\n

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Madison recalls feeling pressure to sleep with Hefner the first night.<\/figcaption>
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\u201cI thought he was really smart, I really looked up to him, so I liked him, and it wasn\u2019t that the idea of possibly having sex with him repelled me so much \u2014 I know that\u2019s not relatable to a lot of people because they\u2019re like, \u2018Oh, he\u2019s an old man, gross,’\u201d Madison said.<\/p>\n\n

\u201cIt was more the group aspect that was really out of my comfort zone and just the feeling of \u2018Wow, OK, that happened. Everybody knows it happened,’\u201d she continued. \u201cI kind of all of a sudden felt like everybody was going to know about me, and I was horrified by it.\u201d<\/p>\n

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Holly Madison says her first sexual encounter with Hugh Hefner took a toll on her mental health.<\/figcaption>
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With that in mind, Madison felt pressured to stay at the manse that night even though she wanted to leave.<\/p>\n

\u201cI felt like, \u2018There\u2019s no taking\u00a0that\u00a0back, so I might as well get what I came for,’\u201d she said, adding that the next morning Hefner had agreed to let her move in. \u201cI felt like by moving myself in and getting what I wanted from the situation, that was demanding respect in a way.\u201d<\/p>\n

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