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As told to writer Sophie Saint Thomas by Instagram model Tatyana. Trigger warning: This piece includes mentions of disordered eating and body dysmorphia.<\/em><\/p>\n

When Tatyana (now 33) was 19, she was diagnosed with third-stage Hodgkin\u2019s lymphoma. She survived. Now, she uses Instagram to come to terms with all she’s been through. To a stranger scrolling through her feed, which is primarily semi-nude photos of herself, Tatyana appears to be a confident, hot woman with tons of tattoos and great taste in music \u2014 and she is. However, if you take the time to read her captions, you’ll learn she’s also still wading through not only the effects cancer had on her body but surviving another near-death experience, as well.<\/p>\n

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Three years ago, she fell off a mountain and broke her back in seven places. In addition to living with resultant chronic pain, Tatyana has also had “every eating disorder in the book” and struggles with body dysmorphia, a condition in which you perceive physical flaws others don’t notice. The images she posts \u2014 and the community offered by a digital platform such as Instagram \u2014 has proven an invaluable tool in her healing.<\/p>\n

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While many incorrectly assume that Tatyana’s Instagram is for the male gaze, just like the thoughts that come with dysmorphia, that’s not the reality. She posts the images she does because they help her see herself through a kinder lens, even when commenters can be cruel. She’s also built a stable of feminist friends who support her on both good and bad days. Tatyana doesn’t consider herself above posting a hot selfie to intrigue a crush, but by and large, the photos are for her<\/em>.<\/p>\n

To dive further into the motivation behind why women post nude or semi-nude photosonline, Allure<\/em> talked with Tatyana<\/strong> (aka @badjuju69 on Instagram<\/a>) about trolls, the male gaze, and how a self-directed semi-nude photo shoot can help fight body dysmorphia. Here’s her story, which has been edited and condensed for clarity.<\/p>\n

Hi, I’m Tatyana, and This Is What Nudes Mean to Me<\/strong><\/h2>\n

I started posting nude photos online about six years ago. My ex was a photographer and he was always taking nude photos of me. After we broke up I found I missed that, even though it made me anxious at the time because I was insecure about my body.<\/p>\n

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I\u2019ve had nearly every eating disorder in the book. I\u2019ve also had really bad body dysmorphia. So when I started posting the photos, I was like, \u201cWow, people are responding positively to this?\u201d because I had never looked at myself that way.<\/p>\n

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